Lately, I've been finding it harder and harder to find motivation to move forward.

I am constantly in a state of utter despair. I can't muster the energy to start any projects, and all I want to do is sleep. I don't feel like anything I'm doing is leading to anything great, and despite the successes in my life I am no closer to happiness than I was 5 years ago.

I don't know what I can do to fix myself, and I'm scared that I'm leading myself down the path of suicide - I can't go on pretending that I'm fine anymore.

I'm just... so tired.